My jumbled thoughts

I'm feeling better but a bit jumbled lately. I have a lot in my mind and it makes me crazy sometimes.

First, School will be starting soon. I'm so excited to see everyone and be teaching my students again. I'm worried about my stamina though. I'll make it through the first day I'm sure, but then not being exhausted for the second day concerns me.

Second, my dissertation process is SLOW! I kind of knew it might be, but I'm a little frustrated with myself because I'm not as quick at it as I was before.

Third, the neuropathy. It will be fantastic for a few days and then BAM! I'm in so much pain I can't stand it. I even cut my thumb pretty bad this week and didn't feel it.

Fourth, I just need to be sleeping at night. I need restorative sleep. My mind will constantly go go go about things I cannot fix and/or I have some pain issues.

Sorry for the downer of a post. It's just where I am today.

All of my Doctors

I have so many doctor and scan appointments now! I saw my radiation oncologist last Friday and my medical oncologist today. Radiation thinks I look good and after my mammogram they want to see me. Medical oncology has decided to start me on Tamoxifin and see how I do. If I don't do well, then he'll stop it. He's concerned about the neuropathy, but we really won't know the extent of the damage for about a year. He wants me to get moving as best I can, so I'm probably going to join the gym so I can ride stationary bike to start. Luckily, with a letter of medical necessity from him, it'll be paid for.
So, I return in two months to him so they can flush my port, and in 4 months after I have a full body scan. Boy is November and December filling up!