There are a couple of reasons why I haven't been blogging.
Let's start with the primary reason that really shook me to my core.
I was told by a family member that I shouldn't be blogging and putting my life out on the internet. This person was upset that I had talked about Mark and his struggles and upcoming surgery. This person knew all about it, as well as every family member before I put anything out there. I also received Mark's blessing to post.
I was so angry at this family member. Therefore, I stopped writing, not because I thought that writing what I did was wrong, but I didn't want to write in anger. I needed to deal with that first before I continued writing.
I needed to find my joy again in writing this blog, and move through this first.
So..... I'm writing again.
We have been dealing with a lot of doctors and appointments, and will know more next week. We just take it day by day.
Here's what I have taken from our crazy 4 weeks after this incident:
1. I know there are a lot of people who believe differently about the COVID crisis.
2. I am doing what is necessary for my situation and family.
3. If you don't agree with how I am handling it, that's fine.
4. Please don't ridicule my decisions on this. I don't need "fake" friends I need compassionate ones.
5. If you and I don't "match" with our beliefs on this or how to handle it, then please have an adult conversation with me on it, and please respect my decisions on whether I will see you in person.
6. I need to limit my direct contact as much as possible. I will be seeing 200 students a week here soon, and am not sure how that will jive with what the doctors will want Mark exposed to before, during and after surgery. We have a plan ready if necessary.
7. We will listen to our doctors with this one. We trust them, and want to have success with this procedure.
8. We have become very creative with how we connect with our friends and family.
9. Being creative and safe, has made those interactions much more meaningful.
10. Through this, I have been able to maintain my joy. Somedays it has been difficult, and some days it has been easy, but I have found my joy EVERY DAY!
#Findyourjoy
