Tedious and Tiring

That's what radiation is, tedious and tiring. I go everyday at the same time. I see the same ladies ahead of me and no one behind me as there is a blank spot right now. I have two protocols in the scanner so that changes everyday. One day the table tilts halfway through and the next day it doesn't. I have figured that out in a week! I watch the screen in the room that gives the numbers of the angle of the scanner and table and soon I'm done. I say my goodbyes, and "see you tomorrow's".

I'm actually amazed at how something so short, tedious, and pain free can cause me to be so tired. However, the medicine I am on for the neuropathy makes me tired too, so I'm not sure how much of my fatigue is radiation and how much is medicine. What I do know is that if I want to get something done, I need to do it in the morning. That is the best time for my hands and feet. So, I get up with Mark and tackle the one or two things on my list of things to get done. It may be unloading the dishwasher, but then I have to wait to load it until later with Mark's help. It may be folding a load of clothes and putting them away. That task takes awhile especially if I have to hang Mark's shirts. Buttoning buttons is difficult for me usually and it takes time. Sometimes it's typing like today. Catching up on emails, and writing this blog.

I have learned that it is okay that I only get one or two things accomplished. I'm not superwoman. I have just went through 6 rounds of chemo with crazy complications, and am still in treatment with radiation. Doing those one or two things is an accomplishment, and I just keep plugging along at my list of things I need to do. When I get too far behind, Mark steps in or my parents step in to help. I also look toward early July when this part of my treatment will be done. Them I move on to the next step.

One day at a time.