Full disclosure. I have struggled this week. I had many moments where things felt completely overwhelming. I know many people who interacted with me this week might not think that I had a rough week, but I can be pretty good at hiding it. As a matter of fact, I have thought to myself more than once "Why are you giving people advice on finding joy when you struggle so much with finding it yourself sometimes?"
But I guess that's the point. I do struggle, it's real. We all struggle with finding joy at certain times. That's when we need a loving community most in our lives.
This pandemic has made people shy away(including me) from posting our struggles and even our joys for fear of retribution from people who have been.... well, just plain nasty and mean. How can you share your struggles and joys if you don't have a community that will cry when you cry, and then encourage you to find your joy. That's what I'm hoping to build.... A community where people can find their joy, and release their struggles with finding it when they can't. Then have a community of people come along side of them to help them find joy again.
Here was my struggle this week. I got to a point of exhaustion where I was just mad. Mad because I wanted to know why everything seems SO HARD! . In comparison to others, my life is not that hard. It just seemed hard. So, I took a drive. I took my mail(which had some catalogues in it), and went to a park. I sat at a picnic table and looked through my catalogues. It was quiet, it was beautiful out, and I just sat and enjoyed. I was there for about an hour and a half. It felt so good.
I needed to get out of the house. If I stayed at my house to look through the catalogues, I would have just looked at all of the "things" I needed to do there. None of them were too important, but I was feeling so overwhelmed that they all seemed huge.
It's okay to have to work at finding joy, and it's okay to let a few things go. I'm horrible at it, but I keep trying. Just know that there is a community here. I really believe that the people that read this blog are genuine people of this community who wish to find joy and help others find joy too.
Here are my joys for the week:
1. The weather was gorgeous this week.
2. When the rainy days came this week, I cooked soothing meals and took care of me!
3. I was able to be quiet in nature for 1 1/2 hours
4. I started a Posh party to raise money for Breast Cancer Research
5. We had a "pink" day Friday at school. I AM A SURVIVOR!
6. My dear friend Donna's daughter is getting married and we celebrated the couple at their wedding shower!
Keep walking forward everyday, and I hope you can #findyour joy
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